rockstar

 

buhay

 

na-baron k n b sa utang?

 

sometimes everyone needs a second chance. like me.

ellen adarna or ellen page?

 

vote here: auto poll

favorite magazines

frankie

flow

tokyo weekender

*things to do in marikina* 💙

the look

 

in the loop

 21 and broke. 💙

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joan, kain tayo dito 💚😎

 Splangs Lomi - Morocco St., Nangka

real world:

freelancer/racketer: 3000 PHP per month

TESDA graduate (waits tables): 10000 PHP per month

how i got a job:

 romans 13:1 - "Let everyone be subject to the governing authorities, for there is no authority except that which God has established. The authorities that exist have been established by God. "

some thoughts:

she said: you're not talented enough.

i said: am i too boring?

she said: you love other people too much.

i said: (thinks to myself) so what do i that's not for love?

i said: i like art. i like drawing.

i said: i'll be an artsy girl from now on.

keys: 

• adik sa national bookstore
• adik sa anime
• adik sa books

so what do you do that's not for love?

• drawing
• speaking Japanese
• reading books with pretty language

saan ka ba uuwi?

• lookbook/ello/vsco
• japanese streets/tofugu/rainbowholictv/playlist global
• electric literature

i said: i'm kind of intimidated by big brown women.

life notes

 tips on how to get a job:

• read all your spam mail
• learn from all the advertisements you see
• subscribe to newsletters of websites and shops you're interested in
• read magazines
• who knows, a job might be right around the corner

my job:

• affiliate marketer for a clothing store
• instructions/training: brilliant affiliate (feels like i have a mom)
• certificate in digital marketing from google garage

st. celestica's college starter pack

 shein:

• lettuce trim ditsy floral mesh skirt
• black elastic waist skater plaid skirt
• blue ditsy floral slit mini skirt
• black self belted ditsy floral skirt
• green guipure lace sleeve solid tee
• pink shein v-neck solid tee
• pink solid laser cut scalloped top
• dark green lapel collar pocket blouse
• peking opera figure pattern backpack
• white stitch trim slip-on flats
• white lace up front chunky sneakers (size 7)
• white spiral notebook with elastic band

stanford starter pack

zappos:

• the north face - grey aphrodite motion capris
• grey jockey active judo leggings (3/4 leggings)
• blue adidas golf pants (3/4 pants)
• grey free people sky tee (open-neck tee)
• blue madewell whisper cotton v-neck tee
• white free people take me tee
• madewell black central drapey shirt
• black michael lauren dustin crop cardigan
• black sam edelman linnie loafers (slip-on)
• white nike react infinity run flyknit 2
• maroon fjallraven kanken no.2 laptop backpack

rules:

• for lecture hall (& auditoriums) - wear black leather loafers only
• for regular school days -  wear white nikes

  

selfie

 

jcosan, these are some things i would like to do:

1. make a sticker of my face
2. make cookies of my face
3. finally get some money
4. hey jcosan, i've got a coins.ph account right now. just need to take a selfie
5. find a regular job (online)

i wish 💚

solanin:

kings of convenience:

amelie:

hyde, jekyll, me:

comet:

the little mermaid:

miles to go:

winx club:

waking up slow:

don't delete the kisses:

sunseeker:

di naging tayo:

the story of us:

the continuation:

be my thrill:

yam yam:

queen of disaster:

someone that loves you:

dance at the moonlight:

dear to me:

islands:

lovers who uncover:

i will follow you into the dark:

the sound:

crave you:

how do you think:

quitting time:

still i'm by your side:

summertime sadness:

island in the sun:

leaving on a jetplane:

1234:

hi loujaye

 

i realized that it was loujaye and ingredients who stood in my way to God. i have to let go of them. 

do only 1 thing

 

do only one thing and give your life to it.

pag wala kang magawa

 

praise in times of bullying

 

praise in times of kantoi

 

plans

 ba social sciences (economics) - de la salle university

ba art history and visual cultures - de la salle university

ba childhood and youth studies - miriam college

to do when i finally get money:

buy a few stuff from sm san mateo (all from penshoppe)

---green knit runners & grey knit runners

---black common sense printed dress

---women's skater dress

---stress relievers graphic tee

---be kind graphic tee

---change graphic tee

---black mini backpack

---black all over print coin purse

---fruit fave (pink) cologne and lip balm

---blue women's flip flops

---women's leather casual runners with lace ups (white)

order skirts from my shop at contrado

buy a bag and school materials from sm school supplies

buy pizza (papa john's, shakey's) and chicken (mcdo) from nangka for my dad

get a barangay id from concepcion uno

and a postal id from marikina postal office

get a bank account from chinabank

buy an oppo smartphone from sm san mateo

buy school shoes from sm department store

buy an android laptop from shopee or octagon for luc

buy dairy queen for luc and spock

enroll at futurelearn

-study fashion

-study korean

buy a few copies of frankie and flow online

okay ehem

 

fashion films

 palo alto:

amelie:

chung king express:

marie antoinette:

the virgin suicides:

anong school ka?

game 1:

A - Miriam College

B - Assumption College

C - UP Diliman

D - DLSU

E - St. Scholastica's College

F - OLOPSC

G - PLMAR

H - Mint College

results 1:

1 - DLSU

2 - Assumption College

3 - UP Diliman

4 - Miriam College

5 - St. Scholastica's College

game 2: (anong course ka?)

A - Fashion

B - Psychology

C - Education

D - Interior Design

E - Economics

F - Tourism

H - Arts Management

1 - Fashion

2 - Economics

3 - Education

4 - Interior Design

5 - Psychology

kung saan ba ako swerte?

 results of my blackjack game

(getting good vibes here)

game 1:

A - kamag-anak

B - friends

C - free resources

D - school

result of game 1:

1 - school

2 - friends

3 - kamag-anak

4 - free resources (kailangan ng joker)

kunwari 30 ka na.

1 - free resources

the only option is free resources.

game 2:

A - Boyfriend

B - Church (Victory)

C - Barangay

D - Fully Booked

results of game 2:

1 - Boyfriend

game 3:

A - Victory Katipunan

B - CCF Nangka

C - The Feast San Mateo

D - Our Lady of the Abandoned Marikina

A - Our Lady of Aranzazu

B - San Isidro Labrador

C - Immaculate Concepcion

D - The Feast Marikina (Bluewave)

results of game 3:

1 - CCF Nangka

2 - Victory Katipunan

3 - Our Lady of Aranzazu

4 - San Isidro Labrador Nangka

summary of results:

1A - School (Wonder Research Analyst)

2A - Friends (TeaSwan Vendor or Gengo Chinese Translator)

1B - Free Resources [30 years old] (Content Writer)

1C - Boyfriend (Bookshop.org Affiliate Marketer)

1D - CCF Nangka (Custom Cat or Printedmint Designer)

😇☝✌❤💙💚👸💝💛💦👧🐈

my life philosophy is also like this article.

lovers hit

 

the truth lied

 

jcosan, nagsusugal na ako

 

capsule wardrobe

 dark academia theme

(for school)

*pwede ka bumili ng mahal kung capsule wardrobe ka.

from Nordstrom

- caslon linen shorts (regular, camo green)

- open edit casual shorts (black)

- bp organic cotton french terry pull-on shorts

- caslon eyelet popover top

- madewell whisper cotton v-neck

- madewell whisper cotton crewneck t-shirt (regular)

- madewell women's hilltop gingham check seersucker shirt

- vero moda neally fleece shirt jacket

- nike react escape run running shoe (women, white and yellow)

- born bly penny loafer (women, black)

- knit tennis skirt (white)

- bp pleated miniskirt (green)

- active clothes: zella energy tank (blue) & free people fp movement see you sunday shorts (black)

- sleeping clothes: bp women's katie t-shirt & zella taylor getaway high waist shorts (purple)

- fjallraven kanken water resistant backpack (light blue)

- fjallraven high coast convertible backpack (black)

from redbubble:

(thepapercrane)

- love cycling classic t-shirt

- the only time is now classic t-shirt

virgin

 click the damage

banquet

 

settle down

 

what if

 

where is the love

 

yun kasi

 

measure

 

you guys

 

plight

 

the filibuster

 

listen carefully

 

andaming

nangingialam

dear joan, pls give me the following:

1 Book Sale book

Best Buy Colored Pencils

1 Drawing book from NBS

1 Mongol Pencil

school j

 

school j 👸

not like a wee jay

come in on the right day ☎

and we'll have a lesson yay 🍒

i don't like comments

 i don't like "likes" either

i only like automatic messages 💸

my blog

 

my design

 

i am

i am

sumwun

i am

attractive

i am

damn rich

i am

scammer

i am

scammed

via GIPHY

ching ching/jing jing

 jco = "japayuki"

tamiko = "outcast"

bailey = "baduy"

joan = "loner"

sigu = "siguro"

t.keshi = "tae"

aicco = "ay! my bad."

erika = "aray ko!"

maki = "mali!"

sian = "sin"

loujaye = "loko"

vino = "vendor"

ingredients = "di included" b-ok

like a panganay, yeah, like a panganay.

 let's do it so fly

like a panganay, yeah, like a panganay

let's do it so fly

and not

become an alalay

like a panganay, like a panganay

let's do it so fly

like may manganganak na

like a panganay.

things i need to do

1.  worship before going back to work
2. buy food for my dad (papa john's pizza, shakey's pizza, mcdo chicken)
3. buy siomai only as my lunch
4. work at infinitea
5. meet jco and bailey
6. buy a few clothes at SM: 3 large sack blouses, 3 skirts, 1 pair of big sneakers, 1 backpack
7. buy: 5 iwhite nightly moisturizers
8. drink lots of water and only eat leftovers
9. start working out 
10. buy earphones
11. buy an android laptop for my baby bro
12. buy an android smartphone for myself (oppo)
13. buy a gomo sim card
14. buy myself a face mask (davida fernandez, redbubble: chromatic horizontal mask)
15. buy myself a cheap plastic (glasses) face shield
16. buy a shirt, skirt, notebook, a sticker 

• davida fernandez (redbubble): phases of the moon classic t-shirt, design 57 sticker, retro rainbow hardcover journal, mint moon mini skirt

shimmy jimmy

skizmiz

3 flights up

only 1 left

and ur out bading

don't make the old poppers disappointed

because he thinks quite highly of himself.

don't belittle geezers at the bar

they just had a rough day at work

at the coal mine downtown

over the hedge

in the forest

there is the coal mine.

dunya

hey dunya

what are you gonna 

do

for today

dunstan

where did you place the ponezthran

we can't move on without our meds

feelings: excited

physical state: sleepy, sweaty, very near taking another bath.

summoning: the wind

harkening: to my next job

sadness: leave seconds for me okay

before we move on: need another check-up from the psychiatrist

need: another dose of speculative fiction

hey whatsapp: it lives in the imaginations of people

hey whatspray: it lives in our hearts

hey whats the time now: time to go back to victory church

hey whatwegonnado now: time to retreat and wake up

hey howtobathe: jogging in the morning plus cold water and hot tea

hey whatshedoinhere: shes evil

hey wannado: i want to go to pinterest

whatidonow: breathing space

playing: relaxing summer playlist

today was a great day

 about to get my diploma from DLS-CSB Antipolo. graduated from the BS Psychology program. guys, i think we should hide. because i still have to work on my job. still have to get my first salary. 

feelings: amai mono desu.

compliments: you're very cute.

suspicions: i think someone is spying on me.

dreads: future disturbances.

hopes: to go to SM Marikina and get more shorts.

more hopes: to order XL tank tops online.

feelings about graduating during COVID: i think i'm in a very unique batch.

feelings about jco: i haven't listened to his voicemail yet.

feelings about bailey: i forgot her number

feelings about joan: i wish he would be straightforward

what i did today: applied for a researcher job at Wonder

what i think; i think i could pass.

hopes for the job: to be employed by the Marikina City government

more hopes: for COVID to disappear soon

more hopes: to visit Johanna and Dezain, the girls I tutored at our local girls' orphanage. wanna treat them to pizza.

hopes hopes: more new Jpop to be released

hopes hopes hopes: never-ending music from Cheeze (k-indie band)

hopes hopes: to meet keshi (korean or japanese indie singer)

summer break treat: watch the end of the f*cking world

 

hey guys

check out this website: coffee.org

i just got an affiliate marketing job here. will be selling coffee sooner or later.

i'm just about to study coffee and how to grind my own coffee. it's a job. 💚🍮☕

wish to see u guys! 👲👹👾👹👧🐊🐄🍜

dear cats

 oh how i loooooove youuuuu

oh how i loooooongggg to be with youuuuuuu

your fur is very soffffffftttttttt

soft, soft, soft is you

very happy is your heart

very smiley is your face

very beautiful is your body

i want to rub your head

and kiss you.

meow....🐈🎂🍛🍢

dear joan

hey joan. the first time i saw you i knew we had a connection (or, i knew we would be good together.)

you're smart. i'm artsy. but i didn't show off my artsy side as soon as possible because i wanted to see if you also had a creative outlet and if you were any good.

i figured out you sang in a choir, learned how to sing and play guitar on your own without a teacher, and write research papers and poetry. i just noticed that you keep writing poetry in tagalog, writing research papers in english, and also composing music in tagalog. i noticed that you also wore black to your award acceptance ceremony (for your award-winning film ost). you wore a black long-sleeved polo shirt for a classical composition.

you also wear white pants to school because you just came from judo practice.

i like your face. i like your height. i like your lean body type. i also like your skin color. it's just the right kind of brown. like bamboo.

i kind of didn't make it all the way to your place just because of these preferences:

1. i wish you liked indie rock. because i like indie rock also. (i just listened to christian music and korean indie at that time. but i listened to christian rock songs at victory katipunan)
2. i really like you being self-taught or "autodidactic". nakaka-inspire 🌈
3. i wish you wrote poetry in englishhhh 😞
4. you had me at your research writing style.
5. do you have any other interests other than music? 😏🍵
6. your writing sounds like vino also. :)
7. heyyyy......my current job right now is a copywriter or a content writer. i work at home. 🍰

hiyyyaaaa....i would like to meet you sometime at CBTL Commonwealth Technohub.

wo xihuan ni/suki desu. 

time chequed

situation: housing crisis

national situation: COVID-19

in the news: it looks like katip world

in the news: jintambly is finally in

feelings: wish i could talk to jimbly

yearnings: wish i could see joan again

inner feelings: wish i had a bf already.

how to do that: flirt with a dude at cbtl

erasure: hey don't say that

how to get money: go to vital dollar

how to get enough money: have to try everything

current feelings: luc, my baby bro, is so cute

how to meet jimbly: have to read all the tinybuddha articles. have to apply it in my life. have to come out a changed person. at the end, i will meet jimbly. will probably find them in the forums.

feelings a bit later: loading with love

work: study the vital dollar

possible hustle: selling and mixing my own tea at tea swan

how to sell: email marketing using mailchimp. 

inner thoughts: i prefer using sender.net. i think mailchimp is for guys

physical feelings: so hot le! i have to get my own fan and aircon

random thoughts: i have a french mailing list or a mailing list of people from france

sending: thoughts to my friends in france

wishing: i could see joan

hoping: to take a shower again

wishfully: hoping i could buy myself tank tops and shorts as pajamas or houseclothes

feeling: my knees will burst from too much sweat

salutations: okay guys, i have to leave. zaijian le. 

 

some words concerning me

1. uchi no neko cat cafe
2. amazing to white
3. scotch
4. bracken
5. girl sponge
6. need a new sketch pad
7. wanna go
8. need to start working again
9. absolution of COVID
10. need to see jco and bailey
11. have to order a ton of frankie magazines from the website
12. have to sell tea
13. need to eat sushi
14. get back into shape
15. b-ok 

first post

1. what is this blog for? a space to tell my friends about myself.
2. what shall be written here? a ton of compositions, daily life journals, and writing practice.
3. where are all the pictures? just a bunch of gifs and unsplash pictures. credits go to giphy and unsplash.
4. anything else to add? b-ok